My Merry Dawn

Will my merry dawn dusk into darkness?Will my dawn disappear in the tides of time? Or will she awaken me throughout my life with its magnanimous rays scattering in all directions, purifying my soul and fulfilling the purpose for my birth.

"Hope for the best,

Prepare for the worst"

-Manoj Srivastav Sir(my 11th class physics tutor

Is 'victory' the final word?

Is 'victory' the final word? No certainly not! Victory is just a benchmark, a milestone which tells you how well you have performed so far and what more you can do to achieve the perfection. As the great scientist Dr. APJ Abdul Kalam had famously quoted, "Success is a continuous process", and the process continuous rite till your last breathe. More than the joy of achievement, it should be the hunger for further improvement that should drive your ambition. Its the hunger and the determination that decides your destiny, your final word!

True victory is the one which you achieve with your own skill and determination and not what you get at the cost of others'. Biggest victory is happiness, peace and freedom. Even a loss turns into victory if you've lost for the sake of others' good.

31/05/05

Well, one thing I learned from the past week was that- irrespective of the performance and 'class'. , one more thing that you certainly need for success is luck. Expectations and predictions don't matter here. Preconceptions are just out of question. Who could imagined me in scoring 86% in boards, and then all of a sudden go to Jaipur trip, and that too in the midst of summer! well that was certainly surprising. the world of hope holds the key here. The thing is- see the world through the window of joy and hope,, and everything will sure taste sweet. Team work and cooperation matter, and not just self determination. Contacts and relations will surely give its fruits one day. Acquire knowledge and see the world through an all different kaleidoscope. Don't give way to superstitious thoughts... Just Live!

19/04/2005

Look at the positive side of things. I've gone through some of the toughest experiences which even some of the people wouldn't have dreamt of. I've succeeded the peaks that even the best has found difficult. I've seen what people call as 'ecstasy'. I've been one of the luckiest to be on earth, to get such a graceful lady. to curb her and her sister, to make her mine, to have that magical 'eye to eye contact' that everyone dreams for. And the best part is the ability to resist everything for the sake of each other...

Proud of myself !

18/04/2005

I dont know what to do, I've gone blank in love. I feel to give up, to forget everything, to run away into some unknown planet far far away from the reality , and into a planet of my dreams so that i could meet her. I swear that there's not a single hour or a minute in my last 10 months when i haven't dreamt of her. Every step that i take, every action that i do, every breath i breathe,there's her name in it. I am craving to meet her, and to tell her how much she means to me, and to burst my emotions.

The sorry part is the fact that I dont know her even though she's so close to me. I even dont know whether she'sfollowing her parents orders or whatever. But one thing ii am sure: I am really heartbroken! Each and every night I pray to the mighty got to take me to her. Every morning I wake upto the expectation that she'll call me today and everything will be back as i was.

Is my Life teasing me?

Is my life teasing me, trying to think about my past, with struggles of my present and thinking about the probabilities of the future? Am I getting confused over what to do and what not to?

No problem, dont get rolled over .Just follow these simple steps and see how life goes simply as one, two, three...

• Stop writing diaries. Its not meant for a guy like me
  
• Don't think about your personality, thats the way i used to when I was a child
• Damn your gloomy past, forget it, even forget some people if necessary
• Dont long for a lost people and relations. Its just a waste of time
• THink positive , thing about 'now'!
• Think about yourself first, others come second
• Enjoy your life.At last there's one 1 life to live
• Khao piyo ash karo(as Arvind says it)

15 years of sorrow?

Bday spcl

The lows and highs are part of life. Infact we are destines to face it. No one can ever escape.

My life- well in one word can describe it as 'heavenly'. I've got all the happiness in the world, all the best relatives one could ever get, great trustworthy friends, all the luxuries of the living, a single child of the parents with no brother and sisters to fight,, great support from all and lastly a loving and well wishing dear girl..What more can i ask for...

Isnt this a heaven on earth? I can enjoy the beats of my own tune and also sing it..

talking of sorrows; as the word suggests, are something part of everyone;s life. they form an integral part with our life and bloom the sprout of happiness, for happiness and sorrows come one after each other. And in my life, sorrows are much lesser than happiness. SO why remorse?

Learn from your sorrows to make a happy tomorrow. The great destruction from the tsunami is teaching us one important thing- that is to rebuild a new empire from the debris. link the past with the future , but have a new face. try to stay unshakable and stable...

Well BEST WISHES FOR ME ON MY 15th BIRTHDAY. Hope everything goes well on track, and the rest is upto the almighty..

24/02/2005

Just 7 more day to go for the 10th boards... but why get scared?

Hope sustains life

and a strong aim provides the courage and determination to face the challenges. The tenth class has given me all the possible challenges in life and has taken away all my luck. Life's been like the season of winter for me and all the seeds are far buried under the think snow of misfortune. Although its spring in in the vicinity. but still no luck is coming my way... Nevertheless I must be hopeful. I've to trust the person in me and learn from my won lamented story. I must analyze my own life before approaching other for help. Enjoy the beats of life, its the time to disco(Kal ho na ho style)

23/02/2005

The dreams have blessed me and my hopes have eroded into the river of reality. A call came today which would go down the history as one of the most unforgettable ones in my life. My poem(The passage from my heart) proved very true and each word of it was precise to its mark. And what more , her true love is worth all those blame games and the challenges that i faced.

The most striking feature is that- I managed to not only get close to a girl, but to also embed my love in her heart that too in just 7 months. Great achievement! I tried to stay simple, respect her and to give relevance for her words and was ready to dedicate myself. Moreover an open heart and a true love helped me achieve this great feat. I wonder why some of the guys find it so difficult to get a girl. If a guy like me can get such a prolific girl like her, that too having a twin sister, even after facing such family problems,, then why cant other get going.. really wonder why???

I've been noticing for a couple of days that she's been very shy and controlled in her words. I had a clue of whats expected of such behavior and alas when she said it , it proved to be true/ She just said the fact that I'm in her very dreams and she's gone mad about it. Its really fantastic and proud feeling to hear such from your partner and I'm just thinking how to tackle the 20 days in kerala without you(after the 10th board exams). It would be like hell!

BUt then i feel happy that she's would be in my own class in 11th class. and also the fact that the 'dream' of a marriage is getting clearer. I would love to get her as she has passed all the tests and she deserves to be with me, provided she too wishes so. but its just the beginning, and as i just said- we've been friends for just about seven months only and still a lot of time is left. But ask me - frankly i would tell you that she's the one i would die for.. she's just the perfect match and a perfect daughter in law for my parents...

21/02/2005

How can five alphabets be of such great value in life.. but thats the way it is. The name 'Pooja' is something like that to me, i don't know why. I cannot spend a day without listening to her and her talks. Before calling her, everytime it seems i want to talk a lot; but the moment she picks the phone, i forget everything. She's not only a friend to me, but something more.. infact a lot more- a lover, a partner, an inspiration, my life...

I wait for that beautiful day- that sunny day when the sun will smile and dance;The breeze will sing for me and the sky and earth would witness my darling day. She will come, probably a bit shy; then start with a light conversation. Slowly and steadily she would change the conversation and lastly spell out those magic words for which I've longed all this while. Just imagine how I would be reacting then, just stay so , or hug her or may be kiss her in happiness...

I will be touching the sky and thanking the whole universe. I will be the happiest person in the world and that day I will value as the most important day in life.. And as far as my Merry Dawn is concerned, I will be dedicating my whole day for her, enjoying every precious moment spent with her. Oh what a wonderful time it would be...