Year 2011: The year of extreme swings

Year 2011 has been the year of extreme swings-both mentally and physically.The year saw me getting really exhausted with myself.. at the same time it gave me new reasons to cherish as well. There have been such ferocious changes in emotions that I pray I never go though such pendulum ever again. 

Some of the unfading memories of the year have been mentioned below: 

1. Cricmates  Peelu Party 2012- Jan 1 
2. Went to Sree's home for 1st time with Prashant - Jan 6
3. Photo Expo with Vineet, PK and Jilsen - Jan 8
4. Binoy wedding special party- Jan 16
5. Babu bhaiyya wedding(family G2G)- Jan 31
6. Temple visit with papa mummy- Feb 6
7. GATE2011 & Cricmates B'day bash party- Feb 13
8. Placement at Mahindra Satyam- Feb 14
9. Electronics Expo with Sud- Feb 19
10. EEE Tshirt- Feb 25
11. Cup of Life- WC 2011 Finals- Apr 2
12. RSKZ GIP meet- Apr 24
13. Once in a lifetime EEE Party- Apr 26
14. ICU- May 3
15. Rakhsabandhan to Dwarka- Aug 13
16. RSKZ Onasadya- Aug 14
17. Nightout with PK and Vin- Sep 18
18. Ind vs Eng match at Kotla- Oct 17
19. Trade Fair with RSKZ-Nov 19
20. Trade fair with parents-Nov 23
21. RSKZ goes to Sree's home- Nov 27
22. RSKZ Xmas meet- Dec 24
23. Cricmates visit to Karim's- Dec 25

21/10/2011

Team Cricmates™ at Firoz Shah Kotla

 Some very eventful   and colorful  days went past in the last couple of weeks. I went on to make the Cricmates™ T shirt(went to Karol Bagh), and met Gaurav and Mayank on the occasion. Then one Sunday had a great party at Jitheshji's room(9th Oct), it was hosted by Jitheshji and Abhilash. I even went on to commence my cricket and scored and superb matchwinning knock on 26*(16balls, 4sixes)

But the biggest event of them all was obviously the Cricket match that we went to watch at the Firoz Shah Kotla.the 2nd ODI between India and England, it was a really unforgettable day. But may be I went on to enjoy a bit too much, coz since then I had some uncomfortable feeling for a few days!

19/08/2011

And there ends the great summer of 2011. A great drama, that started with Poo'z arrival on 28th April. it was a journey of a lifetime with you and myself travelling together all along the crests and troughs of it. Though we couldnt meet as muchas we would have liked to(thanks to your parents), but still we were happy with the fact that we were in touching distance from each other. And just like every year, this year also brought us more closer to each other, our relation reached new deapths. And just as I got back into normal life, and back to its usual track, you left Delhi today

words from John Maxwell

People are illogical, unreasonable & self centered,

Love them anyway.

If u do good, people will selfish you and tear your motives,

Do good anyway.

If you are successful you'll win false friends and true enemies,

Succeed anyway.

The good you today will be forgotten tomorrow,

Do good anyway.

Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable,

Be honest and frank anyway.

The biggest men with biggest ideas are shot by the smallest men with small minds,

think big anyway.

People favor underdogs but follow only topdogs,

fight for the few underdogs anyway.

What you spend years to build may be destroyed overnight,

Build anyway.

People really need help but many attack you when you help them,

Help them anyway.

Give the world the best you have and you'll be kicked to your teeth

Give the world you best have anyway!

-excerpts from John Maxwell's 'Developing the leader within you'

The 3 Idiots

Goodbye Asthalin

It stayed with me all throughout my childhood and adolescent age... all day and night, all seasons of the year, everywhere I go... After 21 long years with my Asthalin Inhaler, I finally bit farewell to my life saver buddy drug. I have graduated, and so is my requirement of an inhaler; and the new buddy I found is Duolin.

Goodbye Asthalin...

An Experience of a lifetime: at hospital

3rd May 2011

8:30am: tension in the morning; planned to visit doctor Malhotra

10:30am: condition worsens every minute; plan to get injection at home but late for medication

11:30am: get the injection but it isnt effective

12:30pm: reached Malhotra clinic; condition is bad; given injections and nebulisation; take rest

1:30pm: take medicines and get some relief

2:00pm: Poo visits; I was still struggling to breath; they try to give me some food, but I'm not able to eat.

6:30pm: situation worsens after I try to sit. Goes really breathless, and I couldnt stand or sit or lean. Injections, medicines, nebulisation, and even oxygen supply didnt work well to improve my situation

7:30pm: Poo's parents come to visit. My situation is critical. They talk to the doctor and decide to shift me

8:00pm: Poo's dad drives me and my mom to Metro hospital.

9:00pm: reached Metro Hospital. Joji uncle and family waiting there. Initial reading not so good. Immediately shifted to ICU. There were 7nurses, 2 docs and 2 attendants waiting there to handle me. Doctor Sharad and Doctor Kanak(he's also male!) were guiding me to approach the situation. Nebulised, then put in ventilator, Oxygen was constantly supplied. The situation was just like that we have seen in Discovery channel.

9:30pm: by this time they had checked my ECG, sugar, blood, sputum, urine, BP, O2 etc.. everything was being constantly monitored. Doc Sharad brings papa mummy to the ICU room and shows me. Then he takes then to the other room. Soon the Xray is also done

10pm: had enough of nebulisation and now was put fully in ventilator. I tried to sleep but couldnt. there was still a lot of difficulty in breathing(only abt 15-20% relief). There was a clock rite in front of me... so all i was doing was to check the time, look around the room. I could see the Noida city from the windows rite in front of me

4th May 2011

12am to 2pm: Situation calmed but there was still a struggle going in. There were 4 nurses to attend me and all of them were sitting right in front of my bed. 3 names I can remember are: Shins, Reshmi and Jismy. Nurse Reshmi was my main incharge(Bed no:2). For once I could remember her spelling out my name: Jishnu Krishnan, and after a pause, she hummed and asang the tune 'Krishna nee begane'. I dont know why, but that felt really special. It was at that point that I turned up to see the nurse's face(till then i was mostly keeping my eyes closed). Though the nurse's face was covered with the mask, I could see the eyes, the long eyebrow like a 'mayilpeeli'(as if those were Sree Krishna's mayilpeeli). There was something in that moment that made me feel happy, as if there was a divine intervention. Sadly though, the silence of the night was gonna be broken soon.. some bad news was on the way. Some strange swelling started building up on my neck

4:30am: Doc Sharad comes up and checks my BP, it reads 80-60. and gives a firing to all the nurses for their ignorance. They removed my ventilator and I started breathing heavy again. Doc brings in papa mummy to the ICU room, it was then that mom notices the swelling at neck. Doc immediately asks for a CT scan. Ambulance was sent to call up the technician. They then started pumping me with small doses of Nitrous Oxide and Oxygen.

5-6am: Undoubtedly, CT scan was 'the biggest struggle' of life, i would say. I was breathing really heavily, and really struggled to even move in the bed and in the stretcher. Doc Sharad, an attendant boy, Shins and Reshmi nurse accompanied me to the CAT scan room. Those 5-10min were a nightmare. first of all, the journey to the scan room was hell, then I was asked to lay straight!(which was really difficult to do). During scan I was made to stop my breath for 25 seconds.. for a moment, i felt I wont be alive till then, but the left everything on the docs and took a stopped my breathing.. hoh.. and if i thought the bad was over, then i was wrong, coz Shins mistakenly opened my Oxygen cylinder so quickly that the water came up with the gas and went into my mouth and nose. This time, even the doc and the nurses got scared! Within seconds the CT conclusion was made, I asked the nurse and she confirmed that there are ruptures in the lungs.

Back into the ICU room, they supplied me with O2 in full saturation(as I'm writing this, its 1am on 8th May and even now I'm supplied O2 in full). No more ventilator.

11am: Docs kept coming and going. The senior doctors also arrived into the scene- Doctor Deepak Talwar and Doctor Vipul Mishra. Now my situation was better than a few hours ago. New nurse came- Sheeba. Docs came up and told me that they're going to evacuate the gas deposition in my chest and neck by creating nick in the chest. They said that there's no need for a major operation. At that moment when life and death are at balance, even the news of my chest being cut didn't 'scare' me. infact i was eagerly waiting for the docs to start the procedure s soon as possible. They gave me anesthesia and started the tearing process, i could still feel the blade moving thru my skin. the pain came only when they pressed out the gases, whoa! that was painful. I could see the blood oozing out and hear the sounds of air bubbles bursting from the cut. Around 15-20 full pieces of cloth were fully soaked in blood. It was a full on 'bloodshed'!

1-3pm: It was the time for the next procedure, called the 'centre line'. A slit was made at the neck for the intake of glucose and other liquids. In electrical terms, it looked similar to an extension board. multiple sockets points for medicines. Infact I can apply the Kirchoff's current law into it.. The worst was now over...

Evening: Dolly aunty, Thomas Uncle, Sugu mama, Usha aunty, Srikant, Binoy, Rinu etc came to meet

5th May 2011

The day was all about resting. I finally managed to get some sleep at night(3am to 6am) . The day was calm and I got my mobile in the morning via Shins bhai. I called up rems and asked her to inform the RSKZ abt it. I also informed Mayank about all that happened. And as always, I didnt want to let the situation go.. I took some snaps of the ICU and a video too. As expected, in the evening I got many visitors, Elsa, Vineet, Abhilash, Prashant, Mayank, Gaurav, Shiljith, Sooraj, Deepak, Vipinlal etc. My incharge for the day was Soumya Nurse. At night, mom bought my 'Neural Networks' book and a few minutes of reading was enough for some good sleep.

6th May 2011

At noon, I was asked to sit and relax. Doc gave me a newspaper to read. The big news of the day was the kiling of Osama bin Laden. At 1pm, Poo came for a visit. Later in the evening, Raizada, Rahi, Gaurav, Akshay, Satheesh and Jithesh came. It was the day I was given some diet- a soup... wow.. it tasted heaven. Never ever in life has something tasted so wonderful before!

7th May 2011

Out of the ICU day: The good news came in the morning that I'm now clinically stable and ready to get out of ICU. Had a chirpy little nurse called Liya for company at noon. She was of my own age, so was better understanding me and helping out. I was supposed to be shifted into ward at 2pm, eventually it was at around 6:30pm that i was shifted to room 315. Soumya nurse and the attenders helped my out the room. I saw Bindu, Sundhu aunty, Raju , Sudheer Uncle waiting in the corridoor. Transition from ICU to ward was a bit uncomfortable, i started feeling some strange pain in chest and the docs had to be called up. Nothing serious

8th May 2011

It was a sunday, so obviously some visits were expected. Morning companion was Shiljith. Soon Aji mama and Sugu came, and then Unni uncle n family followed by Shakti Uncle n Thomas uncle. Around 11:30am, Jithesh, Satheesh and Nithin came, folloewd by Raju bhai at 1pm. The five fingers(Shiljith, Sooraj, Deepak, Vipinlal, Kiran) and Abhilash came at night

9th May 2011

Peaceful morning, it was the day I got my first solid food diet- upma. Srikant came at 6:30am to accompany me as papa mummy went home to freshen up. Mom got my digicam and soon Sudheesh came up. It was photography time. In the evening, Joji uncle came, and just as he was with me, Poo's parents also came in.Later in the evening Shiljith and Sooraj bought the netbook.

10th May 2011

This day I was shifted to another room: 319. At 4pm I had what is known as the '4pm Disaster'. Some strange feelings and uncomfort in breathing, it was only after nebulization that I felt normal again.

11th May 2011

Doctors came for the routine checkup in the morning and said that my situation's good and I can leave the hospital tomorrow. Gaurav came to meet me in the noon, and moments after he left, PK turned up.

12th May 2011

It was the day I discharged from the hospital. Prashant and Vineet came in the morning to help us in the various formalities. Aswathy also came to meet me in the noon. Finally at around 8:30pm we left the hospital. Sudheesh and Srikant were waiting at home with the arrangements. Had the dinner and they left at 10pm.

Summarizing the whole event, I had never ever even imagined myself getting admitted into the ICU like this, or getting 60-70 injections per day... Biogenetic law states that 'Oncology recapitulates phylogeny'. Likewise, I am learning to do everything once again- breathing, feeding, walking, talking etc... It was an all different experience in life. Just like seeing from the other side of life.

at ICU

26/04/2011

It gotta be one of the proudest moments of my life. Even though I've tried my level best to unite the class, I was not really getting the support from the others. But finally after four years of endless efforts, i was able to unite this group of divided identities- and say: 'EEE United'
My happiness in boundless. Mayank jokingly said to me: 'zyaada uchal mat!'. But I rather say: 'Y dont i be happy? I have finally united the class!' Its a great achievement in life. I ubnited people like ashish suri, Utkarsh Tiwary, Nitish, Nagar, D company etc... all into one place. That is a big achievement. what was expected to be a turnout of 20-25, ended up as 50!

The Journey of Btech

Over the next few days, I will be opening my mind on my journey of Btech. Unlike the schooldays, where I lived and ruled like a king; my four years of Btech have been a period of learning and toiling. Most of the instances, I kept a low profile. Infact the struggle had started way before the commencement of Btech, right from the days of 12^th boards, and the fact that friends kept leaving one after one. And then I stepped into my college life, it was an all new beginning in life. I remember my mom telling me: ‘Beta its a new morld thid, very different from your school. Its college, its UP, beware of the people, live a simple life, keep a simple profile. Dont get aggressive and don’t get into altercations’. Somehow the words got 100% absorbed.

13^th August 2007 : the day when a new chapter in life opened. The first few days of the college were great. I put my best efforts to make a good friend circle, one like RSKZ. But as each day passed, my attempts kept disappointing me. I was losing grounds even in my studies. It was just a reflection of my state that I got a suppli in my 1^st semester exams. Slowly Btech became a struggle I was under the impression that surviving in itself a big thing here. By the midway 2^nd year, the struggle saw its ugliest low. Nothing seemed to work well for me, and then things start going bad, it feels as if people around you are changing. Same happened with me and I started feeling isolated. Friend group slowly shrunk to just Gaurav, Mohit n me in gang.

3^rd year started a bit better. I started the session trying to think positive and stay happy. Lot worked out my way and atleast I didn’t felt the isolation in my life- Mayank, Gaurav and me became the gang. Sadly Mohit got a year back.

Moser Baer played a big role in my life esp as a ‘shift gear’ of my life. A new life sprung out and I felt like the same happy as I was during my best schooldays. That happy factor followed me into my college life as well. Though there were some bothering in my personal, but college never contributed to any of those headaches. The 4^th year of college was all about enjoying the moments. The gang was again confined to gaurav, mayank Srikant and me. The concept of making a EEE T-shirt made us work as a group. There were lots of struggle and at a point we almost cancelled the plan. But somehow we kept moving ahead. The rolling out of T-shirts in feb 2011 were a great achievement. Few days later, on a placid Valentine’s Day, when I was least expecting it; I got placed in Tech Mahindra. Later, an unexpected Gate exam turned to be an achievement of sorts, and in the end, a simple farewell party for which we had expected an initial estimation of 20-25 poeple, break all our expectations and doubled in count to have 49 classmates! That was infact a big achievement!

Galgotias College of Engg and Tech.

GCET Farewell Day pics

The letter...

It might seem funny- my month long efforts in bringing you this letter is just for a minute or two's reading for you. But still, let me present you with some collections for your long forgotten days.

The winters are slowly evading and so are my zing for life. I don't enjoy cricket as i used to, mafia wars' is just a waste of time and with my reliance call plan getting terminated, my time in solitude prevails long and loud. and just like 'fashion' which goes and comes back, my interest in writing seems to have bloomed once again in me.

Life's moved a long long way in the last few years. Opportunities have come and gone like the dried leaves getting blown by the winds. the same old question comes again-'What now? Where from here?'. Now that the B.Tech is on its brink, I still ponder what to do- MBA? M. Tech? Government job? IT job? Now that my profession is not earning me a job, lets hope that my passion gets me one.

For years I've been advising people around me to live and think at a higher perspective; not to think life in one dimension; but to think from all possible ways to it. but now, i feel myself confused and unidimensional. Something strange is about to happen...